I Have Decided

I have decided many things in my life - said yes to some and no to others. Of late I have mused about the effect what I watch on TV has on my spiritual formation or the lack there of.
There is much about these that fills the emptiness in my life - the programs come as friends to fill up the precived emptiness of my days. The truth is that they just add to the malaise. When they are gone there is nothing of substance left. I am still alone...no closer to God and His all embracing Presence than I was before..Duh - of course not. These programs just suck the life out of me - make me see my life in terms of lack instead of abundance. They plant seeds of disontent and weave into me the ways and pressures of the world - give me excuses to go shopping because I am, of course, not meeting the standards of "What not to Wear..."
So, I am taking the time I usually spend in front of the boob tube reflecting and writing. I have decided to follow Jesus into fulness - pick up the emptiness I sense and dialogue with God and pick up "paper and pen" and muse away.

Food for the Journey !
In then quiet You come to me
You wrap me in your Presence
Inside and out - around and around
no part left untouched - enfolded - caressed
All comsuming - life giving
You leave nothing unloved as You pass by the dust and dirt
of the day's long journey home.
You carry when the road is rough hewn
You bring nourishment - a rich table set
You shine the light of You into my eyes
and all is changed - the day - life is full - rich
There is enough for the Journey home - for today
there is sufficiency and more.
tlc 9-14-2010

and I add - "All comsuming fire - You're my
heart's desire - Living flame of Love
come baptize us - come baptize us..."

AMEN !

To Know Him

I have no other desire - though the path gets muddles and debris falls in my way -
I have no other desire but to Know my God.
I mean really know Him.
Where does He really dwell?
Who is He anyway?
What is He like?
I don't need words to explain - they are a block in the road to true knowing.
Knowing God is found in the deep - in the interior
It is not on display.

It is frustrating - this search.
No matter what I think I know or where I have arrived
there is always an alley wall with no exit and I stand before it
and cry out again.
Let me know You !
Who are You?

Deep pools...

Finding a peaceful - very quiet place today. I should really say that it found me. The Light within shines brightly but softly in my heart. It isn't the glaring sun of a hot summer day
nor the chilly light of winter's solstice but the soft buttery warmth of fall - caressing the
earth in one last gasp of warmth before nature recedes for a long winter's night.
I dive in and it is like a beautiful deep pool at the foot of a waterfall.
The invitation -
It says, "Don't be distracted from the goal...fix your eye on the Prize and you will be steadied."


I am so grateful for the way God draws me - unexpectingly - into His space.
I was sitting, knitting listening to John Michael Talbot and my soul began to sing along
Voiceless accompaniment to the Spirit's dance within.